i need someone to help ME!!!!!!

so..... ;'( i really need a friend i can just talk to someone i can sall up anytime of the day and talk to someone i know will be there for me whenever i need them.... i dont have that i have so many people who come to me and i listen to everyones problems i try to helo with everyones stuff id do anything for anyone i try everything i can to be there for whoever needs me... why cant i have someone like that everytime i start to open up to someone whose opened up to me and ive helped out they seem to turn away from me they find new friends they forgot about me like im just some person they use to make themselves feel better idk what i should do should i go and just stop helping people.... i cant do that im not that kinda person i cant leave someone when they need help..... maybe thats whats wrong with me i care to much about people who care so little about me maybe its just me maybe they just see me as someone who they can talk to but they know i dont spread crap yet they dont care enough about me to actually help me in my time of need :'( why.... why cant i have someone like that i turn to God for everythhin i talk to Him about everything why cant i find someone here to that i can talk to and they can talk back to me i feel so alone whenever i need that someone to talk to whenever i need to just vent but i dont have that..... they say its wrong to keep things bottled up but i aint blew up....to bad....yet :'( idk what to do i hate this feeling of  lonelyness :'( sorry for these past few depressing blogs but its all i been feeling.....