thinking to much

bored in spanish i was so intent on learning it now i got to much junk on my mind to even pay attention i do the work and get a good grade but i dont pay attention in like anyclass anymore and i mean the only reason why im passing so good is cause i can figure out ways to get it done and in spanish its easy i can just look it up history its cause i watch the history channel all the time and it just hits me if i think about it long enough english i sit by smart people and its just easy math there is NO HOPE but we just had a fire dril it was great they shut all the doors so we couldnt get out it was great now were back in here and its going off again thats great so i guess im leaving again but i kinda just wanna stay here idc if its real or fake anymore!!!!! i just been thinking way too much and nothings going the way i want to ive been invited to smoke weed and i actually said i prolly will ive never in my life thought id ever do anything but dip and smoke a few cigs i mean i know thats not good either thats why i dont do it that much anymore unless i got alot on my mind..... why is this that ive actually thought about it and might actually do it today or friday just idk dude :/// i hate this i hate this feeling like im nothing i hate the fact that i think its true i hate feeling defeated i hate feeling down and lower then dirt and the feeling of nothingness and just like my life is just failin lately :'(